hello friends,
my name is myrrha, and i have schizoaffective disorder.
for those of you who don’t know already, schizoaffective disorder is characterized by the presence of bipolar disorder with the added bonus of auditory, and occasionally, visual hallucinations.
i was diagnosed last year and it’s taken me a while to become comfortable talking about it with family and friends.
so why am i telling you? well, while i have been prescribed anti-psychotics that help with the delusions, hallucinations, and paranoia, my doctor and i have yet to find a medicine that helps with the mood portion of my disorder. that being said, lately i have had a very hard time getting out of my depression cycle. it’s made my life a living hell and i haven’t been able to see a way out for a few months now.
recently my doctor suggested i check myself into a treatment facility where they would be able to keep an eye on me while adjusting my medications and hopefully finally grant me some relief.
the only problem being that i would have to give up precious work hours to go away. my bills are close to $650 per month and i honestly cannot afford to take even a weekend off work to take care of myself, let alone cover the cost of going to treatment in the first place.
that being said, my family is not able to help me fiscally. i am a very proud person and this is very hard for me, but i honestly feel like i have no other option than to ask for help so that i can get the help i so desperately want in order to get better. i just want to feel okay again.
i’ve added a donate button to my blog and honestly every little bit helps. even if you can’t help fiscally if you feel comfortable, please pass this along. i’m so sorry to ask because i know there are people in so much greater need than me, but i can’t live like this anymore and frankly, i’m out of options. feel free to message me with any questions and thanks so much for even reading this.